Monday, February 7, 2011
It's my party and I'll completely ignore it if I want to.
or just bitch and moan. Whatever works. The bitching moaning and crying never seems to, so I'm opting for just ignoring it this year (right after I finish dedicating a whole blog entry to it).
The husband was supposed to be only a few hours away for training starting just days before my birthday. He would be there for a full month, so that also would have freed him up to come to our youngest's second birthday party as well.
Well, apparently, there's a change in plans. And so I sigh and moan and hope maybe there's more to this than meets the eye (no, my husband is not a transformer), but go on the assumption that there's not and my birthday is just going to suck.
I'm the type who always gets bent out of shape about birthdays. This year, though, I don't have any plans and the more I think about it, the more I think I just don't want any. Despite that photo of Mr. Grumpypants the pissed off feline up there, I'm really not depressed. I just think it might be best to skip any celebrations.
So, I think I'm just going to pretend it doesn't exist. I won't mark it on the calendar. I took it off my Facebook profile. I'll avoid my usual birthday count downs. While I didn't plan on telling the kids, the oldest saw me type my birthdate to sign up for something the other day and she remembers it. She keeps telling ME how many days until my birthday. Gee, thanks a lot, kid.
I'm really not even feeling particularly upset. I'm just exhausted and I really can't see how we could anything to celebrate, so I'll try a new approach. I don't want to get myself worked up with hopes for anything, so I'll just try this and see how it works.